Back to Work!

Today is the 1st day of work after the confinement for 5 weeks. Really sounds like I just gave birth to number 3 but no. 5 weeks of paid leave sounds like a good deal to many but trust me, when you are grounded, it ain't no fun at all. 

How did it all become a 5-week confinement? What was meant to be a 1-week hospitalization leave became extended, very. Well I guess, I am not as hardy as I imagined myself to be. Actually, the LEEP is not a major surgery. In fact, it is a fairly common procedure, and pretty straightforward too. I can still recall my doctor explaining the complications of LEEP to me, and I told her, should be fine. I read up extensively on the web, and almost all the websites tell you it is nothing major. However, my doctor did emphasize then, that I may feel, look normal, as if I have fully recovered, but inside of me has not healed so don't take it lightly. But this did not seem to register very much with me.

This is what exactly happened to me, like her prophecy came true. So my wound wouldn't heal, gets dislodged when I moved too much. Seriously, I don't even know what is too much because I am just in the house all the time. Okay, sometimes, I get so bored, I will potter around, cook simple meals, pack some stuff here and there. But I soon realize, those movements are way too much. So, there was a period of time when I am just on the bed 24/7. I ate, read, checked emails, everything on the bed. The only time I got down from the bed was when I needed the bathroom. 

Going to the bathroom was another nightmare. It had became so stressful every time I go because I always have to pray that there wouldn't be any signs of bleeding, otherwise, I have to start the healing cycle all over again - meaning, I have to go for a partial procedure that hurts so bad, makes me puke after, and leaves me feeling super crampy and weak for half a day. These are things nobody tells you officially on medical webpages. 

Now, I am so glad that it is all over, and is still grateful that I detected the abnormal cells early, even though I have to go through the crappy weeks, it is still better than letting the cells become more seriously abnormal. So, sisters out there, do your PAP test regularly if you haven't done so. These abnormal cells can be there and yet no symptoms. For me, there is always a possibility that it will come back so I just have to be vigilant. 

And I am so ready to go back to work because I am seriously deprived of intelligent human interactions (and dressing up, of course).

#OOTD